Stupid

I hate it.
I hate this kind of game!

I'm stupid!!!
maybe it's only my own will, but not urs.
And I've misunderstood everyone 's words and meanings behind those.

Last year someone suddenly told me somebody said I am cute.
Am I really ?
What was "somebody" 's intention then?



放工後只是累
很討厭一切

Beautiful lyrics...of Narnia

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

The Call - Regina Spektor

心煩

從Provence 回來，
心情好像沒有怎麼好轉。

還是會寂寞。
等等等，
怕機會溜了。
還是等。
結果可能是嚇出個結局 。

又在想，
是不是別人的世界容不下我，
我的世界也容不下別人。
我不能包容不喜歡的人／事。
心胸狹窄啊。
唉，
是我的問題，與同事好像總是融入不到。
不想工作。


第三件事是，
該怎樣打發兩個月暑假的光陰。
應該去學習學習。
德文好嗎？
但我連英文普通話都未講得好，
從我返francfranc 時與客人的對答就看到啦。
今年，
我會是一個好leader 嗎？

我想我該要知足。
昨晚在網上遊走，
知道一個不甚認識的同學，
一個在Year1 Sem2 一同上過Introduction to Translation 的課的女同學，
得了Cancer。
怪不得今年完全未有在校見過她。
在我的記憶中她是漂亮善良的女孩。
讀著她在網誌上的文字，
我很難過。
不過她很堅強，亦很積極，
從她拍的照片，寫的字都能感受到她的善良。
她的心很美麗啊。

我還渴求甚麼呢？
一個健康的人，
心卻很醜陋，
也很難讓別人愛你吧。

Hi. First try here. See you soon.